Counting Crows

This is kind of weird writing whilst you are in the room with me. I guess that is really while I always intended to write these while I was away. The good news in that is that I haven't really been away all that much lately. To give you some idea - according to my travel log - I have only spent 8 nights away for work since June 1. That is no more than 4 nights a month. Since I never figured I would get that much time at home, I never figured on writing these at home. I guess I will have to change the plans. As I always have things I want to say to you.

This post hit me a few weeks ago on the plane while I was listening to my MP3 player. A Counting Crows song came on and as I listened to it I wondered why I like them so much. Everything kept pointing back to you. Some how, some way every CC song reminds me of you or at least makes me think of you. I did some research on the whole Counting Crows thing.

In the song "A Murder of One" they have the following lyrics:

I dreamt I saw you walking up a hillside in the snow
Casting shadows on the winter sky as you stood there counting crows
One for sorrow
Two for joy
Three for girls and four for boys
Five for silver
Six for gold and
Seven for a secret never to be told

It turns out it is how they got their name. The lyric is paraphrased from a mother goose rhyme. I am not certain which one. However, the lyric is intended to mirror the old superstition that your fortune in life was shaped by the number of black crows you found on your path to the world. In Adam's view you need only ONE person to shape your fortune in life. That one person is your true love. The song goes on to say you don't want to waste your life trying to improve your fortunes after you have found that one person.

So I thought to myself why do I love this band so much? Why does every song in some way make me think of you? Then it hit me. Adam is a hopeless romantic. He wants nothing more than to have found his one true love and have that one true love be his "counting crow". As he sings, I realize I have exactly what he desires. Something in every song reminds me of that.

I remember when I first discovered Counting Crows. I saw them on Saturday Night Live while you were sleeping. I woke you up to tell you how awesome I thought they were. We were together when I discovered them.

I remember the first time I heard "Anna Begins" and heard the lyric "...and every time she sneezes I believe its love, Oh lord I am not ready for this kind of thing..." I thought to myself that it was so romantic. There are so many little "sneezes" that you have that instantly remind me how much I love you. The difference between Adam and me is I am very ready for this sort of thing.

I was so happy when we saw them in concert and you were taken by Adam's ability to write songs. It again reinforced my bond with the band and you. If you really liked the band, it made them mean even more to me.

All of this aside, I think it is important to have you know that even though I am not the most vocal person in the world about these things, I spend my entire life associating the things I love with you. Enjoying something with you as a part of it makes it even better. My favorite band, my favorite team or even my favorite foods. I want you in every part of my life. I always have. My silly Counting Crows example is just one of many. You are my life. The only thing that truly makes me happy. The only thing that always give me joy. The only thing that I plan for the future with.

I love you so much. Today will be a good day - because I get to spend it in love with you.