The “Bear” Told Me

Sweetie it was an “odd” weekend.  We really should never have those times when we are not in sync as a couple.  I said it this weekend and it will always be true.  We are not a couple where “loving each other” is sufficient, we have to “be in love with each other” to make things work.  While I know it is a subtle difference we both know it is the “thing” that makes us different from any “regular” couple.

I am truly sorry about the situation on Thursday morning.  In no way would I ever want to bring any of your insecurities to the surface.  I feel even worse that some of those insecurities are a result of something I had done during our relationship.  I know I can’t fix that, but I can assure that no matter how you feel there is only important person in this world for me - and it is you.  That hasn’t changed since 1988.

If it helps you should know that you are truly the first thing I think about when I wake up and the last thing I think about before I go to sleep.  I am so in love with and making you happy is really all I want in life.  I know it is not appropriate for me to ask you to ignore any kind of insecurity you might have, but you should also know that I would never do anything to cause you hurt or make you feel sad.

For 2 days we were out of sorts.  We talked, but not really.  We hugged, but not really.  we even went out, but still something didn’t seem right.  So how did I know that the time was right to “make amends” between us?

On Friday night we had a weird “go to bed” experience.  You wore a tee shirt and  no nightgown, I didn’t do the Banana Republic thing, but the key was that the bear in our bed wasn’t under your arms.  In fact it was though he had some sense that things were not right, because he slept all night in spots that made me truly uncomfortable.  He belongs under your arms.

On Saturday night when I woke you up I did so because the “bear” had found himself back in his rightful place under your arms.  It was as though he was telling me that you needed a “real” hug and that I needed to do that now.  I am pretty sure he smiled at me as well.

I am so glad we talked about all of this and you were so honest with me about things.  It is why we are such a great couple.

I can’t wait for Orlando.  It will be fun and I am excited to show off my amazing wife to people.  And Mickey Mouse?  Can’t wait.

You’re the world to me.  I love you more than anything in the world.

Every Last Detail…..

Thank you for letting me be your valentine again.  Now I wait a whole new year wondering if you will say yes again.

It was a really nice weekend.  The hotel was as always perfect, both dinners were good (they had pluses and minuses), the symphony was really cool and you looked beautiful at every turn.  On Sunday you really just looked amazing in your jeans and cool shirt.

I thought long and hard about this blog entry.  I was going to recap this weekend, but I think it speaks for itself.  So I am gong to focus on something you should hear more often.

Sweetie – you look amazing!  I am not sure that you even really understand how much your months and months of workouts have changed the way you look.  It shows so much on weekends like last weekend when you get dressed up to go out.

At every turn this weekend you looked better than the moment before.  On Friday night you looked fabulous in your cool shirt – even if I am uncertain that I ironed it properly.  You really can wear a pair of jeans!  You “overcame” the makeup incident and  despite things be done out of order your face lit up the whole dinner.

Saturday you went more formal.  The blouse really showed off some of your best “assets” and the skirt fit you perfectly and you made it look not only sophisticated, but quite sexy.  If only the shoes were the right size huh?  Even then you make heels something to behold.

The new nightgowns didn’t go un-noticed.  They covered just enough to keep me peaking anytime i got the chance.  They were sleek and sexy.  You have all the right curves and they clearly showed them off – for me i might add!

As I said on Sunday you just looked amazing.  I know it was “just breakfast” and just a casual outfit, but it was awesome.

So even if we didn’t exchange gifts, I got one anyway.  For 3 days I was with by the most attractive woman in the whole hotel.  A thing of true beauty.  A fantastically sexy girl.  My valentine.

You’re the world to me.  I love you more than anything in the world.

Be Mine (part 22)

The timing is a bit off this week.  Valentines Day falls on the weekend and we will be enjoying our lovely weekend at our favorite hotel during the time I should be updating this blog.  As only a fool would make a blog entry during a romantic weekend, I have to accomplish my annual task early.

This is the 22nd time I will beg you to be my Valentine.  As of now I am riding a 21 year streak of yes answers.  Can I get that lucky again?  Last year I finally declared the Valentines Day card as an insufficient means of expressing my love and asking you to be mine.  The year before I reminded you of the perfect gifts I could give you to convince you to be mine.

This year…..I stole a song for you.  I found this song a long time ago (ok a few months ago) and I knew instantly that it would be my Valentines blog entry.  It is the perfect ext to ask you to be my Valentine.  So aptly named “Be Mine”.

Rather than simply list the lyrics, i am just going to steal parts of it and use them to plead my case.

“From the very first moment I saw you
That's when I knew
All the dreams I held in my heart
Had suddenly come true
Knock me over, stone-cold sober
Not a think I could say or do
'Cos baby when I'm walking with you now
My eyes are so wide
Like you reached right into my head
And turned on the light inside”

Its is so true my love.  You awakened me.  You made me the person I am today.  Had you not come into my life the light would have never gone off.  I would never have found the person who makes me feel this way.  The person who made love possible in my life.  How could you not “be mine”?

“If I had some influence girl
With the powers that be
I'd have them fire that arrow at you
Like they fired it right at me
Maybe when your heart and soul are burning you might see
That every time I'm talking with you
It's always over too soon?
That everyday feels so incomplete
'Till you walk into the room?
Say the word now girl
I'll jump that moon”

There is an episode of The Office where Pam tells Jim why her dad left her mom.  It was because Jim told her dad how he felt about Pam and he had never felt that for her mom.  He said “he knew you were the one from the first moment he laid eyes on her and how he felt every time she walked into a room”.  The part of the song above says the same thing and I so feel the same way.  I could simply sit on the phone with you.  We don’t really need to talk.  You just have to be there.  I get an excited feeling when I see you and a sad feeling when I don’t know where you are.  Its like the time I was getting my hair cut and you weren’t there.  Literally every person that walked by that wasn’t you left me feeling empty.  It is the kind of true love I feel.  Is it enough for you to “be mine”?

“Rainy, shiny, night or day
There's nothing in the way now
Don't you see?
Be mine! Be mine!

Winter, Summer, day or night
Centigrade of Fahrenheit
Baby till your heart belongs to me
Be mine! Be mine!

Thursday, Friday, short or long
When you got a love so strong
How can it be wrong now? Mercy me!
Be mine! Be mine!

Jumpin Jesus, holy cow!
What's the difference anyhow
Baby till your heart belongs to me?”

I am not sure how much more I could plead with you.  Be my Valentine again this year and I’ll continue to give you my entire heart.  Every beat, every pulse will be for you.  My heart will beat not only to give me life, but because you gave me life.

So for the 22nd time.  Will you be my Valentine?  I’ll wait for Sunday to hear the answer.

You’re the world to me.  I love you more than anything in the world.

Indigo Eyes

I think I have some pretty good news for you my love.  You may actually have “indigo eyes”.  And likely not for the reason you thought you did.

i did some research on what exactly makes ones eyes “indigo”.  And it turns out it isn’t really the color.  The phrase “indigo eyes” started in Greek literature.  Orpheus appears married himself a “less than virtuous woman”, but he loved her.  He and his wife, Eurydice, lived together for a near eternity and she became somewhat of a matronly figure to all of the gods children.  However her past could not avoid her.

Hades came to punish her on her deathbed (for she was a mortal married to a god) for her sins prior to her marriage.  And by law she was forced to descend into hell.  It literally crushed the love struck Orpheus.  His grey eyes cried so much that they turned colors.  The tears of love turned his eyes to a beautiful indigo color.  However they could not hide his sadness over the loss of his wife.

Legend grew over Orpheus eye color.  It grew all the way to Hades ears.  Hades approached Orpheus with a deal.  Trade me your eyes and I will return your wife.  However, as all Greek myths go, the tragedy was that he would never be able to see her again (as he now had no eyes).

Orpheus made the deal.  He had to to get the love of his life and his reason for being back.  He was happy again.  Eurydice returned to her matronly ways and eventually became pregnant.

She and Orpheus had a son.  A son with beautiful indigo eyes.  Ones that allowed Orpheus to see his wife again – if only through his child's eyes.

Peter Murphy wrote a song about the story called (ironically) “Indigo Eyes”.  It was as romantic as the story.

So you do have “indigo” eyes.  Eyes that start grey and because of the love they have appear indigo.  Your have the “indigo” eyes you desire my love.  Even if the color doesn’t exactly say so.

So while this post isn’t perfect, it is a love story of epic proportions.  A man who gave his perfect “indigo” eyes for the love of his life.

You’re the world to me.  I love you more than anything in the world.