We need to sing

Our concert playlist is playing right now.  Its an amazing collection of music essentially designed for the two of us.  Just think if we could gather ALL of the artists who sing the songs in one place.  What a show.  What a day (it would take a day for them all to play).

Incubus
The real Jackson Browne
Billy Joel - the non-stadium smokey club version
Fuel
U2
Dashboard Confessional
Toploader
World Party
Styx
Jay Ferguson (cause everyone needs a little)
Coldplay (ok I gather Chainsmokers can attend)

It would be glorious.  Oh who am I kidding, having us sing all the songs is glorious.

Feeling a need to sing Dig and sing it to you the way it should be sung.

We all have someone - that digs at us
At least we dig each other

Sing this song.......

I couldn't love you more than I do my love.

You're the world to me.  I love you more than anything in the world.

Daily Phone Calls

I just answered the phone when you called.

You started out with that familiar "Hey".  It sounds like heaven.  Its followed by some happy thought or cool thing you need to tell me.  It makes em smile and warms my heart.

So many tiny little simple things we do to/for each other that make us smile. 

So I though to myself, maybe it is the insignificant things that you notice that are the really romantic parts of being in love.

Who knows, but you voice made my afternoon.

Decorations outside tonight.  Spiked Cider!  I can't wait.

You're the world to me.  I love you more than anything in the world.

Adam Duritz

I am watching a concert video of Counting Crows on YouTube.  I've decided that I am currently very into live music right now.

Adam just stopped in the middle of "Anna Begins" and asked the audience if he "ever connected with any of them personally through his music" (they cheered as expected).  All I could think was "Oh yeah, I have a whole blog for my wife because of your connection my friend".

I bet he would smile.  Likely, because "he can write songs".

You are the world to me, I love you more than anything in the world.

Part of the New Way - The Moment when "We Shine"

I heard this song and thought it was odd that David Gray - they happily married and in love guy - wrote this for his wife.  It seems so sad, so awful, until he fits the words "shine" into the song.

When he sings "our love has faded" he isn't saying goodbye. He is acknowledging that relationships need constant work and that the mundane nature of life can dull even the best relationships. He doesn't abandon his love, though. Instead he says "let's go where we can shine." He knows you can't just leave your soulmate, because "your soul is the one that you can't compromise." And that true love can survive the rough times, because "for all that we struggled, for all we pretend, it don't come down to nothing except love in the end."

"Take my hand", he says, not farewell. That is true love.

My love "we will always find a place where we can shine".  I promise.

David Gray "Shine"

I can see it in your eyes
What I know in my heart is true
That our love it has faded
Like the summer run through
So we'll walk down the shoreline
One last time together
Feel the wind blow our wanderin' hearts
Like a feather
But who knows what's waiting
In the wings of time
Dry your eyes
We gotta go where we can shine

Don't be hiding in sorrow
Or clinging to the past
With your beauty so precious
And the season so fast
No matter how cold the horizon appear
Or how far the first night
When I held you near
You gotta rise from these ashes
Like a bird of flame
Step out of the shadow
We've gotta go where we can shine

For all that we struggle
For all we pretend
It don't come down to nothing
Except love in the end
And ours is a road
That is strewn with goodbyes
But as it unfolds
As it all unwinds
Remember your soul is the one thing
You can't compromise
Take my hand
We're gonna go where we can shine
We're gonna go where we can shine
We're gonna go where we can shine

(And look, and look)
Through the windows of midnight
Moonfoam and silver

You are the world to me.  I love you more than anything in the world.

A New Way for the Blog

I logged in today and noticed that your last update was on February 14th.  Not really a good thing from my point of view.  Primarily because there are a hundred things I want to say to you and have you be able to remember them.

But writing a full blog takes real time my love - and while you are worth the time - it also takes real privacy and secrecy to write.  Those are things I rarely have in my life.

So I decided that small entries are better than no entries.  So from here on in, you will just have to check the blog from time to time to see what I have added.  It may be a few paragraphs, it may be a simple memory i want to re-share with you, or a song lyric or just something I think you will enjoy.

It will retain that personal and intimate nature and it will remain for your eyes only.

So here is entry number one.

Today on my walk to work, I saw a young couple holding hands.  They looked really happy.  They must have been, because they maintained that hand holding through some heavy city walk traffic.  It made me wonder how they would be doing 10 years from now, 15 years from now, or even 30 years from now.

Would they still be holding hands?  Fighting through city traffic firmly gripped in one another's hand?  Would holding that hand still be important to them?  Would it still be worth that fighting effort?

We still hold hands.  Often.  We held hands in the grocery store yesterday.  It was only for a short time, but as inconvenient a place as the grocery store can be, we managed to do it for about 10 seconds anyway.  And its been more than 30 years for us.

So while that couple might be strangers to me, I sure hope they couple find 10 seconds at the grocery store 30 years from now as well.

You're the world to me.  I love you more than anything in the world.

Happy Valentines Day - Version 31

So this is it.  Valentines Day number 31.  31 times I have groveled to get you to accept my offer of "being mine".  I like that you make me work a little for the right answer, you are certainly worth the effort.

I can't believe its been 31 years that we have done anything.  I mean we ARE young right?  I can honestly remember thinking "(he/she) is 31?  Wow that is old."  It's fine for us though, I figure we just keep getting better with age.  Plus we do have the 30th anniversary thing coming up very soon.

So I am going to use Valentines Day to use on of the many "vow" scripts that I am considering.  I figure this way, I reduce the the choices by one and this one doesn't go to waste.

So here you go (now picture me standing in front of you in Maui trembling cause I am nervous):

t. 

I can't believe you are still standing across from me.  In fact, I can tell you honestly that I have been surprised to see you standing across form me for more than 30 years.  How did I get so lucky?  How did I STAY so lucky for so long?

From day one I swear I have felt like the loser guy in John Hughes movies who somehow "got the girl".  Somehow - despite my dorkiness - this vision of amazing took time out of her life to bless me.  To love me.  ME!?!  I know there were probably a million guys you could have wound up standing across from, but you chose me.  But here you are - across from me. 

Its how I know I am the luckiest guy in the world.  My fairy tale came true and I've had endless days of happy every afters.  We have had adventures together.  We have fought dragons together.  We have rescued a fair maiden (or the guy version of that) or two.  But this fairy tale story keeps rolling on and on.  I truly can believe in magic.

So when I look across at you and you see a mumbling fool trying to read this, know that that fool knows he has been so lucky to have you in his life, that no real words are ever going to describe how I really feel.  Know that when I squeeze your hand as I struggle to read this, that I know that your squeeze back means "everything is fine - call down Jim".  Then I'll magically finish reading.

I'll say "You're the world to me.  I love you more than anything in the world"

And I will mean every word of it with all of my heart.

Whew - there I made it. The real thing isn't going to be as easy.

So will you be my valentine?  I'll wait patiently on your answer.

(and because I am superstitious)

You're the world to me.  I love you more than anything in the world.