Solid as a Rock

I can't believe it has been 2 weeks since I posted. The past few weeks have been a blur. Our oldest off to college, our youngest off to her sophmore year and our friend sharing her woes with us for a whole weekend. I promise you that updating this is very important to me. I promise you that when I do update this blog every word is important to me. I apologize for the missed week.

Summer is almost over. It seemed like it came and went so fast. So much has changed in our lives over the past 90 days or so. Child growing up and leaving home for her life adventure. Child changing from care-free youth to a teen with challenges of her own that we often cannot help her with. Nephew about to be married. Best friends going through a strange but troubled time that may ultimately lead to the end of their marriage. It all happened so fast.

However, through it all you remain a rock. You remain the one thing EVERYONE can count on. The one consistent in a world of change. I know you hate change, maybe it because it puts so much pressure on you to maintain for everyone including yourself. In the end I think we all take for granted that you will keep the world in order for all of us. In the end you provide safety and refuge for us all.

It is amazing the person that you have become. You weren't always like this. I know that can't be true. No one could carry this much strength for a lifetime. Or could they? Could that truly be your gift to the world? Your never ending ability to make others feel safe? Your ability to protect? Your ability to give your unconditional love to those closest to you?

I know you feel strongly that everyone has some kind of purpose in life. That we are all put here for a reason. After all you have been through I guess you have to believe that is true. My inclination isn't to believe in such things. But you make me believe it is true. You make me believe in things I wouldn't otherwise believe were true.

So here is what I think your purpose is life was meant to be - your reason for being so to speak.

You were to have those beautiful girls and love them and make them who they are.

You were to change your mothers life and make certain she didn't cause her own demise.

You were to be the one real family member your brother so desparately needs.

You were to save my life and make me the man I have become.

Everytime you look in the mirror you should see the miracle you have become. The miracle you are. You are some kind of an angel. Some kind of piece of heavan sent to all of us to make our lives real. To give us the love we all need so badly. To protect us from evrything including oursleves sometimes.

I love you so much and am so lucky to have you in my world. We all are lucky. We all love you so much. I love you above all else.

I usually end these posts with a heartful - I love you. However this one needs to end a bit differently.

This one ends with a Thank You for being who you are. A Thank You for being our angel.

Thank you my love.