Calling all angels

I'll explain what this means tonight at dinner.  I'll explain why I posted it and where it fits.  We can discuss over Crab Legs......

Here goes.

There is a song by Train called "Calling All Angels".  I think in reality its intended to be a spiritual song about the belief in God looking over you.  But with any piece of art, it is open to interpretation.  My interpretation.  (FYI, I made not ONE but TWO different misspellings of that word).

The song speaks of the need for support.   Things like children not being alone, needing  a sign "to know you are here" and other references.  Bu there is one lyric that hits me more than others.

The singer says "we live in a world where what we want is what we want, until its ours".  The chase so to speak.  The conquest.  The victory.

It speaks to how hard we try to "get something" and what little effort we put into "keeping something".  Like love. Family. Marriage.  So many people take the steps to get those things and suddenly take them for granted.  How nice a family picture or a happy couple may look on the outside, but on the inside you know if a shinier object appeared, there would be new pictures with similar smiles, just different faces.  Because the chase is really the exciting part.

We, my love, have never had such issues.  We work so hard and so well at making this our life.  Making our love and relationship something that gets better every day.  That breathes on its own and feeds our next moments.  It gets more special everyday.

But it comes with a decision.  A decision we made so long ago.  Which is the reflected in the next lyric in the song

"I won't give up - if you don't give up"

He sings it so passionately.  With such feeling and heart.  Like he is looking straight in someones eyes during a difficult time and sharing strength.

"I won't give up - if you don't give up."

Every tough time we have ever had together, I know we looked at each other the same way.  Every decision we made together that didn't go as we planned, we shared our strength together and got through it.  As always, it is about WE not me.

"I won't give up - if you don't give up."

Every moment of our lives that weren't perfect.  Ones that so many other couples would have walked away from so casually.  We fought, we fought for each other.  We fought for us.  As always, is about WE not me.

"I won't give up - if you don't give up."

Maybe its what we do best honey.  Fight for each other.  Recognize what we have and make sure it will always be there.  Count on us.  Believe in us.  Stand as us.

I have some plans for this song/thoughts.  There is some time between now and when I plan to use it, but I thought you would appreciate where my heads at right now.  It'll mean more in say - late summer.  Assuming, some other thought doesn't trump it between now and then.  :)

You are the world to me.  I love you more than anything in the world.