Anniversary Present 2017. 10 Reasons. Reason 4.

So for the final time I am re-iterating that that song (and I honestly cannot remember the title) by Simple Minds has no meaning in my life.  I, in fact, had not ever heard it prior to Sunday.

The reason I know this to be true is that my assignment of music to our relationship is not something you share with anyone else.  It had never happened before you.  While I may have had songs that reminded me of points in my life, no other person in my life ever warranted enough of my attention to have songs that I associated with them at a personal level.  Were there songs that  I associated with other people?  Yes.  But none for any reason other than a calendar.  As in they may have liked a song or something.  No meaning beyond that.

This is a association/memory I leave only to you.  Prior to you the meaning of lyrics meant very little to me.  Seriously, I was a "Big Country" fan for gods sake.  I challenge you to find a song from them with any kind of deep meaning.  I knew lyrics back then and found many of them clever, but for no reason other than I found them clever.  I have one song prior to you that I associate with a person(s) and that is for pure hatred reasons.  Get me drunk and ask me about "Landfall" someday.  I may give you an earful.

So it is you my love who owns all of my lyrical genius and memories.  You may note that today's blog is a bit late in posting.  The reason is that I made an attempt (a failed one as I was interrupted a dozen times) to count all the song references in this blog.  I lost count at 93.  I think there may be north of 150.  All of which I know I found at least one line/lyric that made me think of you.

So I asked myself, why do so many songs remind me of you.  The answer is simple.  I have never had someone who is on my mind so continually in my life.  So pretty much any nifty lyric I hear I am able to associate with the person I am currently thinking about.  Guess who that is my love?  You.  Like 24-7.  Amazes me to this day.

We have our song.  A great one at that.  I had definitely heard that song before I met you.  Maybe 2 or 3 times.  But never really gave it much thought.  Then when I heard it after meeting you suddenly it was genius.  It has the ONE lyric that made me know that it was perfect for us.

"I could runaway, but I'd rather stay
In the warmth of your smile lighting up my day
(the one that makes me say - hey!)

'cause you're the best thing that ever happened to me or my world
You're the best thing that ever happened, so don't go away"

My whole life I spent thinking that whoever loved me was going to eventually leave.  Not you.  You made me feel safe.  Loved.  Warm.  Because you ARE the best thing that ever happened to me.

So that began our musical journey.  Hundreds of songs.  Thousands of feelings.  Silly things like the Luke Bryan song and me imagining you dancing as a teenager.  Damien Rice songs where I was amazed that someone else sings so passionately about someone they love.  The Cure.  Elvis Costello.  David Gray.  The list goes on and on.

I have whole bands that make me think of you.  Counting Crows.  Every song, every lyric - picks a part of our relationship or things I have grown to know and love about you - that means something to me.  Hell it spawned this blog.

So I had like 20+ years of this internal musical life with you.  One that made music so much better.

Then an amazing thing happened that took our "music" relationship to another level.  We started singing together!  Great songs. Great times.  It is always so intimate.  Maybe the most intimate thing we do.  Why you ask?  I shall explain.

It takes great love and comfort to release your inner "Car Concert" in front of someone else.  We do it all the time.  We hold our own little concerts - for our own imaginary fans.  We sing our lungs out.  We jam.  (I have set lists to prove it) We have the kind of fun that is usually held only for people who are in private places.  Places where they know no one is watching.  We don't care if the other is watching.  It makes it more fun.  As of today there is nothing I'd rather do than watch you sing some Jackson Browne.  Or better yet here you bust out this Incubus lyric:

"We all have something that digs at us
At least we dig each other
So when weakness turns my ego up
I know you'll count on the me from yesterday

If I turn into another
Dig me up from under what is covering
The better part of me

Sing this song
Remind me that we'll always have each other
When everything else is gone"

My love I KNOW we "dig" each other.  And no matter what we will always have each other.  If that isn't fairy tale true love nothing is or ever was.  Music has solidified this over the years.  It has marked places in time.  Created a road map of our lives together.  I am giddy just thinking about it right now.

So music and all its forms is reason number 4.  Hold it true my love.  I share it only with you.

So happy "almost" our anniversary my love. Just 4 days to go.

You're the world to me.  I love you more than anything in the world.