The Next 50 Years

I can't for the life of me figure out how I feel for the "Tiger Test" thing. It has been a long time since I felt that stupid about something. Certainly something so obvious. I am glad you had such a good laugh about my gullibility.

I can't wait for summer. Or really I should say I can't wait for some nice weather. Friday night was really cool. Nice night. Sitting on the patio, talking, drinking some beers and just being together. It kind of struck me that we have like 50 more years of time together. 50 more years of killing time together. 50 more years of talking, sitting, sharing and just being together.

So I figured I would figure out a few things for us to do during the next 50 years while we are killing time.

1) "Learn a new card game." It appears I am a bit out of my realm here. I taught you to plan gin rummy and then you promptly spend the next 20 years kicking my ass at the very game I taught you. We can't play regular rummy because you beat me to death at that as well. I am thinking "war" might be good, because it is all luck and no strategy.

2) "Come to common ground on some music." This one is one we have made plenty of progress on in the past 20 years. I remember just how "grossed out" you were at my music when we first started dating. I know you were just being polite when you listened and hated every note. Now there are few you actually like. Since I am never going to be a fan "70's music", we are going to have to find a band or 5 we both agree are acceptable. Then once we get some new speakers on the back patio (maybe as part of us getting a new back patio) we can pipe in something we both enjoy.

3) "Tell stories about our children's married lives". This one just scares the heck out of me. I can see it now. We have a whole new array people to talk about. We will talk about their husbands, their husbands family, their husbands friends....the list goes on. We will have a whole new family of stories and "gossip" to talk about. I can only imagine the stupid things they will doing to give us plenty of ammo for our conversations.

4) "Tell stories about our grandchildren". I can only imagine the awesome things they will do. They will present us with dozens of years of wonderful discussion about the cute things they do, about how proud of them we are, how proud of their parents we are and how happy all of that makes us every day.

5) "Have plenty of 'alone' time". See with no one else around we will have ample to time to "get to know each other". I can only imagine how this will work during the 40th or 45th years of the next 50 years.

So see I have some plans for us and our time over the next 5 decades. We will have a lot of time to fill. Most of it will be spent holding hands. Looking at each other. Smiling at each other. Arguing about dumb stuff. But it will be time spent together. I can't wait.

You're the world to me. I love you more than anything in the world.

Her Eyes

This is kind of weird since you are sitting right next to me, but I am so glad you are there right now. I don't like the "being alone" part of the travelling. It has been 3 years since this started and there are so many times when I question if it is really the right thing to do. You sitting right next to me is EXACTLY how life is supposed to work.

This post actually should have gone with the poem. However, I had never heard the song when I was creating the poem. I do find it cool that I am still able to find a song that makes me so connect to you. This one has so many lines in it that remind me of you and "fit" you.

The song is called "Her Eyes" by Pat Monahan. He used to sing for Train (may still sing for Train who knows these days). So in addition to being a cool set of lyrics he has a really cool voice. Please watch this one and listen for me (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dpT8-J3xGMc) - it would mean a lot to me. Here are the lyrics (do note I changed one of them just for you - you will find it):

"She’s not afraid; she just likes to use her night light
When she gets paid, true religion gets it all
If they fit right.

She’s a little bit manic, completely organic
Doesn’t panic for the most part.

She’s old enough to know, and young enough not to say no
To any chance that she gets for home plate tickets to see the White Sox.
Like everybody, she’s in over her head,
Dreads Feds, Grateful Dead, and doesn’t take meds.

She’s a Gemini Capricorn
Thinks all men are addicted to porn.
I don’t agree with her half the time,
But, damn I’m glad she’s mine.

Her eyes, that’s where hope lies.
That’s where blue skies
Meet the sunrise.
Her eyes, that’s where I go,
When I go home.

She got the kinda strength that every man wishes he had.
She loved Michael Jackson up until he made Bad.

Tells me that she lives about a hundred lives,
Scares me to death when she thinks and drives,
Says cowboy hats make her look fat,
and I’m so glad she’s mine.

Her eyes, that’s where hope lies.
That’s where blue skies
Meet the sunrise.
Her eyes, that’s where I go
When I go home.

She doesn’t know the word ‘impossible’
Don’t care where I’ve been and doesn’t care where we’re goin’ to.
She takes me as I am, and that ain’t easy.
She’s beautiful. So beautiful.

And sometimes I think she’s truly crazy.
And I love it.

Her eyes, that’s where hope lies.
That’s where blue skies
Always meet the sunrise.
Her eyes, that’s where I go
When I go home.

Her eyes, that’s where hope lies.
That’s where blue skies
Always meet the sunrise.
Her eyes, that’s where I go
When I go home.

She’s not afraid; she just likes to use her night light."

There are lots of lyrics that fit you. The Michael Jackson thing. The thinks all men part. Lots of it fits.

The chorus is so incredible. "Her eyes, that's where the hope lies....that's where the blue skies...always meet the sunrise" how truly romantic. But the next part is the part that gets me, the part that both times I heard the song and you where in the car with me, I probably could have wrecked the car because I had to look at your eyes. "Her eyes, that's where I go - When I go home". Sniff Sniff. It is worthy of a tear. It is the single most perfect lyric I have ever heard.

So you need to know forever. Your eyes are where I go when I go home. I love those eyes. Everything tiny little thing about them. They speak to me. They tell me things I know you would never say out loud. They smile at me. They frown at me. They show me love. Now I have a song all about them. A perfect song with a perfect lyric.

You're the world to me. I love you more than anything in the world.

I am NOT Funny

I haven’t really done anything fun in this blog for quite some time. It has mostly been focused on our anniversary and me very seriously expressing my undying love for you. I could do that again this time, but I figured it is getting boring hearing me tell you that all the time. It is time we got back to the core of our marriage - making each other laugh.

So I figured this type of entry puts a ton of pressure on me. I know I think I am funny, but I am not so sure you think so as well. In fact you likely don’t find me funny at all. I may make you smile or chuckle form time to time, but in general in your eyes I am not so funny. Am I correct in assuming that?

So lets see what can I do that is funny…..

How about a good old top 10 List? Something memorable like the “Top 10 Embarrassing Husband Moments of the Past 20+ Years”. I am pretty sure you laughed when they happened, why wouldn’t you laugh at them now right? Ok here goes…

10 - The incident in Texas following the trip to Cabo Grande. I’ll never go behind a convenience store again.

9 - Trying to kill a spider as I got dressed for work. Our nephew may never recover...

8 - Countless times I have put shirts on backwards, inside out or just flat out wrong.

7 - Any time I attempt to do my Eddie Vedder

6 - …….

You know that list is more humiliating than it is funny. Plus if someone actually saw that I would have to move to an island somewhere far far away. Maybe I should try another approach.

I could quote lots of funny movie stuff. My “Will Ferrell” arsenal of movie quotes. No that isn’t ME being funny that is someone else being funny. Wow this is harder than I thought.

Lets see. I can’t tell jokes. I can’t really remember funny things I have done. Most of my humor is movie quotes from someone else. Pathetic isn’t it? You know what I just figured out? It is you that is the funny one in the marriage. You who makes us smile all the time. You who cracks us up all the time. I am just along for the ride. It is a fun ride, but you are definitely driving.

So I guess I’ll just face facts. I am not that funny. No matter how hard I try only I think I am funny. Every once in a while I get lucky. One time I got really lucky - I found a funny wife. I’ll just ride your coat-tails from here on in.

I’ll stick to what I am best at doing. Loving you. More sappy blog entries to come.

You’re the world to me. I love you more than anything in the world.