P.S. I love You

So this is the first post since the poem completed and we celebrated our 20th anniversary of marriage. I still am so impressed by our 20 years. No because of the fact that we made it 20 years, but rather the 20 years themselves. They have been the best time of my life.

I figured this post had better be good. I have kind of made you used to daily posts and then suddenly nothing for a week. So this one had better be worth waiting for huh?

Here I am like 4,000 miles away - we just said good night. I think we both realized that not speaking for 12 hours will be a really long time. A REALLY long time. How nice is that? We were both kind of taken back by the fact that we won't even talk for half a day. That is what is so cool about us isn't it? We like to spend time with each other or just talking to each other. We expect that kind of "interaction" all the time. When it isn't there we both feel like something is missing. In this case it is. This paragraph alone is making me miss you more.

I am going to take this space to tell you why that movie you and the girls think is so sad is really a happy story. The movie is "P.S. I love You". How you find it so sad is reasonable, but I guess why I think it is so happy is harder to explain.

To me the point of the movie is really that they share a love so strong that even after he dies he feels the need to care for her. Even after he is gone he is making sure that she is ok and he helps her transition the rest of her life. While it is sad that he has passed and they are not together. It is happy because so few people have experienced love that strong. I figure that love like that is a 1 in a billion chance in life. It is against all odds. It is truly special and anyone touched by it has to consider themselves lucky to have even had it for a little while.

It is like us. We take for granted that we have what we have. We are lucky. So much luckier than other people. "Us" is all we will ever need. Whether we live for the next 70 years together or the next 70 weeks. We have to recognize that we have made so much happiness over the past 20 years that every little bit we add to it just makes us luckier. When we wake up tomorrow we will have had more happiness while we slept than some people ever experience in a lifetime. I am not thinking we have some impending doom, but rather recognizing that this is our gift and we should appreciate the gift.

So while she is sad in the movie, she is lucky. Lucky that someone, despite a tragedy, is looking out for her because of their love. Someone who felt so strongly about her he planned an elaborate scheme to care for her after he passed. It is one of few examples of true love.

So that is what we have. True love. It makes us happy. It makes us smile. It may makes us feel sad when we are apart, but the fact that it can do that should make us happy that we have it in the first place. You are my true love.

Good night sweetie.

You're the world to me. I love you more than anything in the world.