The Bucket List

I fell asleep during the movie. For once you stayed awake when I did not. That rarely happens. I am not certain what happens in the movie. I am even less certain that I want to know. At this point I am not sure that I will ever watch the rest of the movie. Even so, I know the movie suddenly has real meaning to me.

I really believe in this "life is a series of moments" theory. Some moments are brief and pass by as quickly as they came. Some moments are almost not even noticeable. Some are so routine that you noticed them but were unaware that they even took place. Some moments are bad and don't pass as quickly as you would like them to pass.

But some moments occur and it is all you can do to get them to come back. They change you. They affect you. They make you feel like you have never or rarely felt before. They are the moments that make life worthwhile. They give life vibrance and meaning. Some are large events - the birth of your children, the moment you said "I do", the first time you saw your true love, the first time you realized you were in love or the day the Brewers made the playoffs (OK maybe not as funny as I wanted it to sound).

Many are small and nearly insignificant but equally impactful in your life. That is the kind of moment I had when the movie ended. One of those lasting moments. One that will remain in my memory forever. One that made me feel something I don't often feel. A moment that despite the fact that it will never return is one I will always want to come back.

So what was that moment? It seems so simple, you probably do not even remember it.

I awoke somewhat unexpectedly. I looked up at you across the room. You were curled up on the couch warming in your blanket. You reached your arms out to me. You smiled that amazing smile I have seen so many times before. You motioned your hands for me to come to you. Then we hugged like we have few other times. Of all the great hugs we have given each other this one ranked with the all-time best. I cannot remember ever feeling so loved or so safe. I can't ever remember having such a warm feeling come over me. It was indeed a moment I will always remember.

I have no idea why or what happened to make the moment so special. Was it the movie? Was it just perfect timing. Who knows. Maybe I don't even need to know. At this point it doesn't even matter. Maybe it was just one of those beautiful things you never question because they are so perfect. It was just an amazing moment in time.

It was just a "moment" in my life. A really, really good one. A perfect one. I can't wait for the next one. And the next one....and the next one....

I love you more than anything in the world.