This cannot happen.

So your phone call really bothered me.  How could we forget?  How could it pass with no mention?  How did I forget?  This isn't just some normal marriage.  Not some normal romance.  Not some normal relationship. 

This cannot happen.

Sure we have numerous anniversaries.  March 25.  June 11.  October 31.  Any day near the Thanksgiving holiday.  I think we may have more.  We have them all for a reason.  A relationship this good needs numerous days of recognition and celebration. 

This cannot happen.

We missed an anniversary.  And an important one.  We both missed it.  We both realized the next day we missed it.  A sad day in our relationship.  A mistake of epic proportions.

This cannot happen.

So why I thought.  There has to be some really good reason why the date was overlooked.  Puppies?  Holidays?  Looking election results?  Nothing.  Nothing is an excuse.

This cannot happen.

"When sickness turns my ego up, I know you'll act as a clever medicine. If I turn into another.  Dig me up from what is covering.  The better part of me."  We should listen to our own lyrics.  WE should be the import ant part of any day.  Not life distractions.  Not kids.  Not puppies.  Not work or companies.  US.  Simply US.

This cannot happen.

At any moment we should have been celebrating together.  A perfect hug to remind us that after 30 years together, "WE" are what is important.  A soft unexpected kiss and a "happy 30 years since...." comment.  A held hand and a squeeze that sends so much love through us that we are instantly reminded of 30 years of happiness.

This cannot happen.

We should have told first apartment stories.  Recalled the fact that our first movie back together was a bit "non-romantic", but it has remained as classic as us.  Each story reminding each of us that for the past 30 years, our lives are one life.  None of that happened.

This cannot happen.

I am truly sorry my love.  You deserved better than that from me.  I don't want you to have normal wife expectations of me.  I want to be your Superman.  I failed.

This cannot happen.

And it never will again.

You're the world to me.  I love you more than anything in the world.