Importance of Mattering

My love I need you to read this and understand just how important you really are in our lives.  I need you to read this and understand that no matter how much you have doubt - you taught me that god has a purpose for everyone.  I need you to understand that you are serving your purpose and serving it  well and that you matter.

I know "these people" you see. People you know.  People that are close to you.

Everyday your phone rings dozens of times.  Most of those rings annoy you or interrupt what you are doing.  But the people on the other end need to hear your voice when you answer.  They need to know that you are going to be the one who answers.  They need your approval and your love.  Because to those people you are the most important thing.

When these people have something of value to share they want to share it with you.  They feel so pleased with themselves when you are pleased as well.  They know how important it is to share things with you and to verify that you are part of their lives.   They count on you to be the people that they are or are becoming.

They need you.

They love you.

They know you are important.

They know you matter.

Anyone who doesn't know that isn't worth thinking about my love.  I know that isn't what you want to hear, but it isn't a penalty it is a reward.

I can remember very well they person you were when I met you.  You say everyday how you "haven't changed", but you have.  Everyone does.  Things that were important to you then are unimportant now.  You have created a life, a family and a legacy that we all cherish.  You are far wiser and so much more aware than you ever were before.  You are a completely different person.  A better person.

I have re-read this now 3 times and it seems like I have made no sense.  That all I did was repeat a few things from our discussion last night.   But I have to know that you understand how much you matter.  How much your entire life has mattered.  No matter what you think - everyone matters.  EVERYONE.  Especially you.

I can't imagine my life without you..  I can't imagine a day where you weren't there.  I can't imagine a life that didn't have you a part of it.  I can't imagine feeling joy without you there by me or feeling pain without there by me..  Your daughters would say the same thing.

So do not fret my love.  Tell me whatever you need to say.  Get it off your chest - yell - scream - cry - rant - breakdown - whatever you need..  I'll be right there to pick you back up.  To love you.  To hold you.  To let you know how much you really matter.

You're the world to me.  I love you more than anything in the World.