I realized on my way to work this morning that I hadn't posted a proper anniversary entry. I guess with our anniversary being on the weekend and "delayed" with the recent hospital stay, etc. this seems a proper a time as any time.
I can't believe we have been together for so long. It seems like only yesterday I picked you up at your sister's house in that amazing white dress. Only a few hours later we would have our first kiss - our first of so many amazing kisses.
I am kind of glad that Penny mentioned the incident on the streets of Chicago. The whole moment still seems so surreal to me. While I am certain this isn't exactly how it went, in my mind it was like a scene from a movie. Romantic streetlights, a light mist in the air, us holding both hands and then a perfect kiss in the darkness. It really was that very moment when I decided to marry you. That I would never be with anyone else. As that night progressed I became even more certain we would be together forever.
And so over 22 years later we are still together. Forever never looked so amazing. I wake up every day with the one true love of my life by my side and go to sleep each night with her in the exact same spot. I still love that every morning we hold each other, even if only for a few minutes, that is always the best part of my day. I still love that every night we snuggle just before we go to sleep, even if I do infringe on your pillow space for just a minute or two.
After 22 years we are still romantic. Even with the recent events, we remembered some of the fun things we used to do as a couple and tried to replicate them for our anniversary. Too bad we didn't have a Kroger nearlby with $0.99 Video rentals and a that Sonic no longer does the "Brown Bag Special". But either way we seem to remember how amazing our lives have been together at virtually every turn.
After 22 years I still find you the most amazingly attractive, sexy and beautiful girl on earth. I can't tell you how many times I simply look at you and think to my self how luck I am to have such a beautiful wife. I still find moments where I can't stop looking at you. Sometimes it is your eyes, sometimes your smile, sometimes the way you smell, sometimes how soft you are and many times something you do that I find oh so sexy. It is like a new surprise every day. A gift that keeps getting better and better every year.
After 22 years, no one makes me laugh the way you do. No one can take something so ordinary and make it into something fun the way you do. No one invents little games that seem to become part of of our lives the way you do. I smile hundreds of times of day from something you have done or said. Many times you don't even realize just how much you make me smile. I am never bored when you are around.
After 22 years, no one makes me feel as loved as you do. No one cares for me the way you do. No one makes me feel special the way you do. I hope I do the same for you, because it would be unfair if this only went one way.
After 22, years you still kiss perfectly. From that day in June 1988 the kissing has only improved. So soft, so gentle, so amazing.
Happy anniversary sweetie. I can't wait for tomorrow, and the next day, and the next day.....
You're the world to me. I love you more than anything in the world.
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Hello Lois Lane
I think this is a blog post you may read over and over again. Because, I don't think I have ever had anything more important to say to you.
The events of the past week have been odd. I have never really been sick before, never been hospitalized, never had to have someone care for me for so long and never needed someone else so much. So if anything, I am a bit out of sorts. I am having trouble with this role so to speak. But it has certainly made me think. Think hard.
I have to admit the oddest moment of the past week was the trip to the hospital with Jim. I was in so much pain, but something else was consuming my every thought. It wasn't "was I going to be OK". It was "oh my god, how badly must I have scared her" or "oh my god, how could I do this to her". How odd is that. I felt guilty about how I called you and how abruptly I hung up. There was no real regard for me. I finally get into the hospital room and all I can really do is ask the nurse where is my wife? Or exclaim, I need my wife. And it wasn't for me. I wanted to make sure you were ok. As I looked out the emergency room door for you to come in, I just wanted to see the look on your face. I wanted to make sure you weren't crying or upset. Because if you were, I would never have forgiven myself. When you came in and held my hand and you were ok, only then could I focus on making myself feel better.
So why is all of this important? Because I have to have you know that I love you that much. That nothing - absolutely nothing - is more important to me than you.
So when I tell you things like "I am head over heels, puppy dog in love with you", trust me it is really how I feel. It is so far short of finding a real way to tell you what is truly in my heart. But knowing that even when I thought I was having a heart attack, all I could think about was "did I cause you harm" is a pretty good measure of my real feelings. Knowing that how you feel is so often more important to me than how I feel, might be a pretty good way to measure my love for you.
We are going to live a long time together. In fact we are a few days from celebrating 22 years of blissful marriage to each. It is the start of forever. Our forever together. And you will know that you are loved every moment of that forever. Loved more than anyone has ever been loved.
I survived and I may very well actually be Superman, who knows. But I realized something. Superman needed Lois Lane. without her his heart broke, he had no powers and he was just ordinary. So you my love are officially my Lois Lane. And I will always be your Superman.
I love you so much. Trust me I have the rest of forever to actually find a way to put it into words.
You're the world to me. I love you more than anything in the world.
The events of the past week have been odd. I have never really been sick before, never been hospitalized, never had to have someone care for me for so long and never needed someone else so much. So if anything, I am a bit out of sorts. I am having trouble with this role so to speak. But it has certainly made me think. Think hard.
I have to admit the oddest moment of the past week was the trip to the hospital with Jim. I was in so much pain, but something else was consuming my every thought. It wasn't "was I going to be OK". It was "oh my god, how badly must I have scared her" or "oh my god, how could I do this to her". How odd is that. I felt guilty about how I called you and how abruptly I hung up. There was no real regard for me. I finally get into the hospital room and all I can really do is ask the nurse where is my wife? Or exclaim, I need my wife. And it wasn't for me. I wanted to make sure you were ok. As I looked out the emergency room door for you to come in, I just wanted to see the look on your face. I wanted to make sure you weren't crying or upset. Because if you were, I would never have forgiven myself. When you came in and held my hand and you were ok, only then could I focus on making myself feel better.
So why is all of this important? Because I have to have you know that I love you that much. That nothing - absolutely nothing - is more important to me than you.
So when I tell you things like "I am head over heels, puppy dog in love with you", trust me it is really how I feel. It is so far short of finding a real way to tell you what is truly in my heart. But knowing that even when I thought I was having a heart attack, all I could think about was "did I cause you harm" is a pretty good measure of my real feelings. Knowing that how you feel is so often more important to me than how I feel, might be a pretty good way to measure my love for you.
We are going to live a long time together. In fact we are a few days from celebrating 22 years of blissful marriage to each. It is the start of forever. Our forever together. And you will know that you are loved every moment of that forever. Loved more than anyone has ever been loved.
I survived and I may very well actually be Superman, who knows. But I realized something. Superman needed Lois Lane. without her his heart broke, he had no powers and he was just ordinary. So you my love are officially my Lois Lane. And I will always be your Superman.
I love you so much. Trust me I have the rest of forever to actually find a way to put it into words.
You're the world to me. I love you more than anything in the world.
Saturday, March 19, 2011
So very lucky
I may not feel very lucky about a few things right now, but i feel very lucky abou one thing. You.
As I sit here in this amazingly uncomfortable bed, my side hurting and now my shoulder in pain i know that shortly you will be walking through the door. It will make me smile. I will feel instantly better. Having you sit in the broken chair next to me will make this more tolerable and i will make it through the day.
I love you so much. I cannot believe that my life has been blessed enough to have you in it. I must be the luckiest guy in the world. I cqnnot imagine making it through this without you. I am sorry if my call the other night scared you.
It will be a fine day of recovery until you have to go home again. Then i will just wait until you walk through the door with your amazing smile to make me feel better.
You're the world to me. I love you more than anything in the world.
As I sit here in this amazingly uncomfortable bed, my side hurting and now my shoulder in pain i know that shortly you will be walking through the door. It will make me smile. I will feel instantly better. Having you sit in the broken chair next to me will make this more tolerable and i will make it through the day.
I love you so much. I cannot believe that my life has been blessed enough to have you in it. I must be the luckiest guy in the world. I cqnnot imagine making it through this without you. I am sorry if my call the other night scared you.
It will be a fine day of recovery until you have to go home again. Then i will just wait until you walk through the door with your amazing smile to make me feel better.
You're the world to me. I love you more than anything in the world.
Thursday, March 3, 2011
Fade into You
I stole this song, it is actually by a band called Mazzy Star. But I heard her speak on some on-line radio show and what she said the song was about made me think of you. So I will intersperse some commentary between the lyrics.
The song is called "Fade into You"......
"I want to hold the hand inside you
I want to take a breath that's true
I look to you and I see nothing
I look to you to see the truth"
She says "fade into you" means to give yourself unconditionally to someone's love for you. Like being led into the dark in a blindfold, knowing that no matter what the other person will help you lead the way and get to wherever you were going. Because you love them you trust them. Because after you have "faded" you become a combination of people into a singular force of beauty.
After nearly 23 years together, I have "faded into you" - I know that with you everything is going to be fine. That when I can't see something, you will see it for me. That when I can't feel something you will feel it for me. After 23 years, I am pretty confident you to have "faded into" me.
"You live your life
You go in shadows
You'll come apart and you'll go blind
Some kind of light into your darkness
Colors your eyes with what's not there."
Together - faded into each other - there is nothing we can't manage. Hand in hand, our eyes catching each other, arm in arm - we can accomplish anything. It is as though after 23 years, we are more than just two individuals who make a couple, but now more a couple who happen to be individuals. We are so in love. We have such a strong bond between us that nothing can break.
We have romantically transformed over the years into a unit of sorts. "Faded into each other" to form something we never imagined. Something amazing. Something so special.
"Fade into you
Strange we never knew
Fade into you
I think it's strange we never knew
I think it's strange we never knew"
I changed the "you" to "we" because it fits better. It makes us perfect.
You are the love of my life. The purpose I sought. The feeling I craved. I can't imagine how life was without you. I can't fathom a new day without you there. To really steal a line "you complete me". I am forever grateful to who ever I should thank, that I found you in my life.
You're the world to me. I love you more than anything in the world.
The song is called "Fade into You"......
"I want to hold the hand inside you
I want to take a breath that's true
I look to you and I see nothing
I look to you to see the truth"
She says "fade into you" means to give yourself unconditionally to someone's love for you. Like being led into the dark in a blindfold, knowing that no matter what the other person will help you lead the way and get to wherever you were going. Because you love them you trust them. Because after you have "faded" you become a combination of people into a singular force of beauty.
After nearly 23 years together, I have "faded into you" - I know that with you everything is going to be fine. That when I can't see something, you will see it for me. That when I can't feel something you will feel it for me. After 23 years, I am pretty confident you to have "faded into" me.
"You live your life
You go in shadows
You'll come apart and you'll go blind
Some kind of light into your darkness
Colors your eyes with what's not there."
Together - faded into each other - there is nothing we can't manage. Hand in hand, our eyes catching each other, arm in arm - we can accomplish anything. It is as though after 23 years, we are more than just two individuals who make a couple, but now more a couple who happen to be individuals. We are so in love. We have such a strong bond between us that nothing can break.
We have romantically transformed over the years into a unit of sorts. "Faded into each other" to form something we never imagined. Something amazing. Something so special.
"Fade into you
Strange we never knew
Fade into you
I think it's strange we never knew
I think it's strange we never knew"
I changed the "you" to "we" because it fits better. It makes us perfect.
You are the love of my life. The purpose I sought. The feeling I craved. I can't imagine how life was without you. I can't fathom a new day without you there. To really steal a line "you complete me". I am forever grateful to who ever I should thank, that I found you in my life.
You're the world to me. I love you more than anything in the world.
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