Spending a day.....

Few people are as lucky as me. Few people have what I have, and even fewer can even grasp what makes up a good portion of my day.

What does my day entail? Much of it is dumb stuff. Pondering work issues, wondering about my sports teams, thinking about what I might eat next, over planning even the simplest of tasks or questioning why even the smartest people do dumb things (myself inlcuded).

There is one constant in my day that makes me always aware of how lucky I am at any given moment. It is the thinking of you portion. It dawned on me that over the more than 8,300 days we have been together (yup I still track it), a disproportionate amount of my time has been thinking about you.

Most of the thoughts are simple things. It would really puzzle to know how often I simply wonder "hmmm what is she doing right now". Just because it interests me and what you are doing, no matter how trivial, is always cool.

I think often about what I will do when I see you next. How will you look? Will you be smiling. What will you have to tell me. What do we have planned. I even sometimes think about what you will be wearing (you have few pairs of jeans I really enjoy right now).

I spend some time thinking about the next 20 years or so with you. How much fun we will have. How many laughs we will share. The hand holding. The kisses. The ..... (censored). Were will we be? What will our grandchildren be like? How will the girls be?

I think about what I can do to make you happy. It is my ultimate goal. Not happy to keep you from being angry happy. But in general happy. How can I make sure that you have a happy life. That you are never unhappy.

But mostly I spend time with so many of the glimpses of the past 22 years running through my head. Many times I cannot pinpoint the exact moment when an image comes into my head, but I know they are part of our history together. They always make me smile. They often make me laugh. Sometimes they make me..... ( censored ). They always make me happy.

So now you know how I spend my day. I dedicate a good portion of it to you. Why would I do anying else? It is why I am so lucky.

You're the world to me. I love you more than anything in the world.