Tomorrow Morning Never Comes

For the first time in the over 4 years we have been doing this “travelling husband” thing I have to come up with a solution for waking up without you.  The past 5 weeks have reminded me that it is not acceptable to not wake up in the morning next to the one person I want to have near me when I first open my eyes.  Tonight the streak of 32 straight nights (and 45 of 47) comes to an end.  Facing not waking up to you has me more than a bit sad.

So I came up with a solution.  Never go to sleep.  That way I don’t have to wake up without you.  Rather, it will just be a long day away from you.  A long day and not a night.  Sounds good right? I guess it is a silly approach, but I can’t really think of another way.

The rambling above may be silly, but it is a reminder of how nice it has been to have a pretty normal life the past 6 weeks or so.  So many people likely take for granted that they spend time with their families.  That they have dinner together, run to the store together, have lunch together and ultimately turn out the lights, lock the doors and go to bed together.

I don’t take it for granted sweetie.  I know that all those little things are what makes life wonderful.  Those routine events that make our “life” together.  we are still the only couple I see holding hands on the walk from the car to Sendiks.  We are also the only couple I know who makes going to get coffee and event.  Stopping at Cafe 1505 and grabbing a sandwich for lunch even though we are both in out workout clothes – and then heading home because you like the chips at home better is awesome.  Dog training classes are fun – even  though our dog really doesn’t know the commands and I suck at teaching her (I need training).

I was there for NHS induction, birthday dinners, in fact I didn’t miss a thing. It was so nice.  We will eventually get to where it is the routine of every day.  I can’t wait.  And I will cherish every tiny moment then too.  Thank you for making every day and every little thing so amazing for me.  You make time worth spending.

Now I just need to stay awake for 8 more hours.

You’re the world to me.  I love you more than anything in the world.