Snuggly Nights

I realized something cool last night.  It happened when we got into bed.  And now I think it is some kind of strategy on your part.  Let me explain.

It appears on nights when  travel the next morning you are far more snuggly than on any other night.  When we get into bed on a “normal” night you in most cases just go to sleep. Nothing wrong with that.  We have been sharing a bed for so long that our ‘space’ is our ‘space’.  We sleep well together.   We always have.

However, on nights when I travel the next day going to bed together seems a bit different.  You always turn and face me.  You always seem to fin a way to snuggle up in my arms.  You always seem to find a way to have me hold you.  It is truly my favorite way for us to go to sleep.

And it isn’t just regular snuggling.  It has a completely different feel.  It feels so loving.  So perfect.  Almost as though it is some kind of indication I shouldn’t leave at all.  It is one of those moments when all I can do is think how much I love you and how lucky I am that it is YOU snuggling up to me.  It is the time when many of these blog entry ideas come to me.  A moment when i remind myself how much in love I am with you.

So this is where I think you are being strategic.  I think you do it purposefully.  Maybe it is you way of providing subtle reminder that I am going to miss you.  Maybe you just want me to have the perfect memory of you the next time I go to sleep – which will be without you.  Maybe you do it in hopes that I won’t leave at all.

I might be wrong but I believe you do it on purpose.  And if that is true I couldn’t be more flattered.  That you love me enough to make my last nights sleep somehow important before I leave is a truly wonderful gesture.  Then again this could all be in my head.  I doubt that though.

However, pretty soon I won’t be leaving at all.   Then the pressure to make every night perfect will begin.

You’re the world to me.  I love you more than anything in the world.

Staying Put

I hadn’t really thought about it until we discussed it this past weekend.  But you were right.  It has been a long time for us that we have had opposite “schedules”.  So much time apart for a couple who should spend so much time together.

I guess it started when we first got together.  We had your evening schedule, my day schedule and my working every Saturday (we needed the extra money).  Then we had a break while you watched the boys at our townhouse and I got to come home at 330 every day and help you.  I was still gone every Saturday though.  However, it goes into the “more normal” part of our lives.

We did pretty well there for a while.  Even though we had the brief time when I worked overnight and then tried to be “normal” during the daytime, we weren’t too off schedule.  It was however the first time we didn’t go to bed together every night.

Without giving you a history lesson neither of us want to re-hash we have spent a ton of time away from each other.  The past few years being the worst of the distance.  Now I get presented with an opportunity for yet another long distance opportunity.  and only during that discussion did it hit how “far apart” we have been “for so long”.

So I am putting an end to it now.  We can’t go on like this anymore.  Actually we could, we are that rare couple who can withstand anything.  That couple who no matter what gets thrown at us we fall back on each other and make our way through.  But why should WE have to endure anything like this anyway?

This is what I picture.  I get up at a normal time and get dressed.  I get into my car and drive to my office that is no more than 10-12 minutes away form our home.  At lunch you stop by the office.  You say hello to the people I work with because you know them well – because well you do come by the office often.  I drop what i am working on as i usually do and we take off for lunch.  on a nice day we picnic, on a cold day we certainly get hot chocolate (well I get coffee of some kind) and we are so well know as the “lunch couple” at every spot in town we never have to wait.  after lunch i kiss you goodbye and finish my work day.  I leave the office at a reasonable time and head home to eat dinner, run errands, watch our favorite shows and rub some feet.

Pretty much every day goes something like that.  Pretty much forever.

It is going to happen soon sweetie.  I promise.  Two people who love each other like we do should not be apart.  I am just thankful that our amazing girls have been there for both of us when the other wasn’t home for so long.  Since they are growing up i can’t leave you alone.  It won’t happen.

So start making those lunch plans.

You’re the world to me.  I love you more than anything in the world.

Amazing “Memorable” Success

Well you pulled it off and made the surprise happen. Kept everything in order and treated everything to a great time. It was just another amazing feat accomplished by an amazing person.

This past weekend in New York was a lot of fun. No one will ever dispute that. We will all remember the things we did, the lasting jokes, the "storied" memories. We will tell the "do you remember that time in NYC when…" stories and laugh. It will have been a memorable occasion.

What will eventually be kind of forgotten is how we all go there. How one person in the family had the vision of how it should be and made it happen. That person is you my love. Eventually the fact that you managed to get all of us there and together won't be the lasting memory about the weekend. In fact we had so much fun this weekend we even started to forgot how we all got there. We started remembering stories of "missed planes", "forgotten numbers", "bar doors needing to be opened", "spelling words with rocks", etc. But in the end we all have you to thank for the whole thing.

You are some kind of an amazing human being. Do you remember that episode of friends where Phoebe tries to do something for someone else and not get any reward from it? Then she realizes she can't do it? Well I think you are one of those rare people who truly does things just to make others happy. And this weekend your plan made so many people happy. I truly believe that while you had fun yourself, your biggest joy was making the rest of us so happy. What kind of amazing person can really be able to do that?

This isn't the only time you have done this kind of thing. The NYC trip was surely a surprise. But just think about how you plan Christmas for the girls. It is all about them having that "awed" moment when they see all the presents under the tree, more "awed" moments when they open each one and the list of memories about the day.

How about the high school graduation celebration? A perfect event. A perfect set of memories. No one will remember the meticulous detail you went to plan the whole thing, they'll just remember all the fun they had on that weekend.

You managed to make perfect memories for both the girls when they got their cars. In some ways the event of giving them car was more important than the car itself. However, them remembering the moment was a big part of the plan.

You are an amazing person my love. You give so much to everyone and expect so little in return. You are in the process of making so many memorable moments for the people that you love and we all are so lucky to have you in our lives. I don't think we will ever thank you enough or even really fully understand what we are thanking you for, but we appreciate everything.

How could anyone not be in love you? I am so lucky to have you in my life – you have made life so much more memorable.

You're the world to me. I love you more than anything in the world.